Angel hearted hipsters,
Burning for the ancient heavenly connection...
to the starry dynamo
in the machinery of the night...
~ginsberg
yup you guessed it, i was watching HACKERS. only one of my fav movies."hack the planet!" i seriously think it was underrated. i dunno why peeps don't love it like i do, but i guess thats not my prob now is it? lol g'nites

birthday month... yup as you might of guessed from the previous sentance/fragment august is my birthday month. YAY ME. thing is i don't think im ready to be like old. case n point, i still use "like" in my sentances. i still am a candy whore, and i still love cartoons. does that sound like someone ready to be 23... yup exactly... pray for me. LOL

Being Twenty-Something.
They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis." It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about yourself that you didn't know and may not like. You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now. You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met, and the people you have lost
touch with are some of the most important ones. What you don't recognize is that they are realizing that too, and aren't reallycold, catty, mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.You look at your job... and it is not even close to what you thoughtyou would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and that scares you. Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find yourself judging more than usual because suddenly you realize that you have certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your list of what is acceptable and what isn't. One minute, you are insecure and then the next, secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life. You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life, but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward. You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you. Or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe you love someone but love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you know that you aren 't a bad person. One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap. Getting wasted and acting like an idiot don't seem as fun. You go through>the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk with your>friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision. You worry about loans, money, the future and making a life for yourself... and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!"

Love like an 80's power ballad

how many people wish you could find that person that would dance in the rain with you, that would hold a ghetto blaster up outside your window, blasting your song, because he loves you that much. I DO, I DO. where are the boys that make you weak in the knees, the boy that would dance with you under the moonlight and fireflies. the one that when your alone with him, you feel at home... you see your future in his eyes and every word he says feels like it wraps around you and comforts your every need. if such men stilll exist, where are they? or are they only in the movies? actors that we buld up, that we fantasize about and lust after... but really do such men exist? are men like taye diggs and jeremy sisto really as lusciously loveable as they are on screen? are they making it hard for the regular fellas to fit into our cookie cutter dreams? oh if love were like that peter gabriel song "in your eyes" life would indeed be beautiful! and i'd be kissing under a firefly sky with ______________ (i'll fill in the name later).